Even Angels Fall : Underneath my skin

Almost everything in this story is true, the only bit that isnt is the little girl playing with her toys. Purely, because i can't remember how it began accurately. I've written this story not to claim that these fantasies are wrong. On the contrary i beleive they're perfectly fine so long as they aren't acted upon. My life was wrecked all because of what some people beleived is kinky and hot and should be acted apon , just in secret, that an impulse to do this and that should be enacted or coerced. Im afraid I haven't got time to write my life story (literally) this evening but as soon as I can tomorrow I will begin it properly.
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