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for Waiting in the Throes

by MaddoxGrey

person Anon
schedule October 3, 2014 at 12:00 AM
It's been over 6 months now (half a year) since you added a new chapter. I am just curious. Is this story on hiatus? If it is, Would you please consider leaving a note it is on hiatus in the story summary so people will know not to read it because there will be no updates in the foreseeable furture. I wish I never started reading it now.
person danny
schedule September 24, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Update, please.
person Cassi
schedule September 20, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Oh my gosh! When you have the time, please consider continuing this story and update soon. Thanks!
person xXx
schedule September 9, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Holy shit! I seriously like this story and how you didn't hold anything back with the graphic details. It was like I was walking in Brennan's shoes which made the whole scenario very chilling and realistic. I am sad to see it not finished and the fact you haven't updated since March 17th (almost 6 months!) probably means it's on hiatus for some reason, or (hopefully not) it's abandoned like so many other stories posted on this site and months will become years.

This story is way to good to just quit but it is your story and real life can literally suck making it difficult to finish. I just wish I hadn't started to read and waited to see what you would do with it because I hate being left hanging indefinitely.



person Mary
schedule September 7, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Aww man, this story just breaks my heart... I hope you update soon since I really, *really* need a happy ending for Brennan. I love your writing style and how you breathe life into Brennan and his life and turmoil without resorting to over-the-top dramatics and melodrama. It's truly rare to come across writing as mature as yours in the m/m slash category (published or not) and so I truly hope you'll continue this story - please don't leave us hanging!
person Maddam_Redder
schedule September 1, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Wow... This story is grippingly amazing! I love it! I'm only a few chapters in and I'm already hooked and desperate to know what happens next! Your characters are very well developed and interesting. And I love that you don't hold back with the violence (ripping his teeth out!? Holy shit that made me shudder!)! It's awesome to find another author who loves angsty kidnappings and cringe-worthy plot lines! I can't wait to read more! Keep up the good work! ;)
person amoxi
schedule August 17, 2014 at 12:00 AM
oh man, I'm, seriously missing this story *sobs*, so updates are more like every 4 to 6 months I guess by now lol...anyway, I know, we all know, RL often hinders on updating regularly, but somewhere you said (I think it was the FAQ of your tumblr) you'd let the readers know if there's a delay...that would be totally kind *puppy eyes*, I guess we missed the July update *looks around* and you said August would be impossible (Congrats on getting married btw) so I'll just hope to at least hear some news about when you'll be able to proceed.

Please take this as some begging from an avid reader :D Love this fic!
person Anon
schedule July 8, 2014 at 12:00 AM
I don't think you have ever gone this long without updating maybe close but I don't think it's been this long.

I hope you are well and nothing bad happened to you.

person Khaleesi
schedule June 18, 2014 at 12:00 AM
I was a little afraid to read part one but forced myself to and am glad I did. It was very frightening what happened to Brennan and Jason. These men are very sick and twisted. I will be relieved when they get caught and prosecuted so that the two boys don't have to worry anymore. I am enjoying part 2 very much.

I hope you finish it one day and give me and everyone else closure.
person areralin
schedule June 16, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Sooo...

I was slightly horrified reading chapters two up to the visitors chapter. I had to skip some parts, to much endless torture could really mess up my dreams if you know what I mean. Well what do I say here, it was not what I was expecting. I guess from the summary? I am not sure maybe some agoraphobia mixed in with some trauma. Not that there was not trauma there was just a lot more than I was ever expecting. The first part of the story sickened me just as much as Neko...and I kind of believe this was worse since Neko had some fantasy elements. There is some weird disconnect when I think that this story might be actually real for some people...

Well, characters were interesting although I have five million questions about them. For some reason the front most one is what were Al and Phil's jobs. For some reason I just can't get it out of my head. I can't imagine Phil working at anything where he wasn't the boss of himself (maybe a night custodian fits him though?). Also Al as a nurse, I know he would nurse Brennan, since he seems mentally unstable I would think he would run into issues if people did act in the way he wanted or predicted. I do have some random theories about the organization and how Richard met them. However, I do think Richard is somewhat in the mid-range I can't imagine a major player in the organization being in his late 30's to early 40's? But, in the story it seems that the FBi is investigating missing and murdered people from up to 10 years ago. Which could mean he was a founder. Guess Richard seems to swarmy and negligent for leaving the key out for someone that had co-founded such a discreet organization.

I cried a lot during Brennan's time in the hospital. I do not know anything about police ethics regarding personal privacy but it seems pretty uhh...against Brennan's rights as an adult to discuss a lot of this with his parents without consulting him first. Then I realized that the police had kept minimal discussion of what happened about his questioning, which made me more relieved. To be honest his mom is suffocating. As Brennan's brother and a nurse I feel like his brother should have stepped up to plate more here, and given his parents some idea of what rape and trauma victims would be going through as well as the hospital staff (even if it's not his specialty, all nurses receive some education on it). It's disappointing...to say the least. Also I am not sure how many hospitals still institute visiting hours...as the patient you can deny visitors, or if you are in a psych ward, or if they reason to believe that visiting is affecting their health. To the Dad well, he should have grown some balls and not let his wife institute some BS where he was not allowed to watch TV and go on the internet. Overall...his family while thinking they are thinking of him they are thinking of themselves...

My thoughts on Jason...Broken and messed up Jason. I feel if I was in Brennan's situation and I knew my friend was still doing terribly. I would have asked to talk to him? Confirm he is alive? He just took the word of people he didn't even trust completely. I realize the emotional drain etc. but as untrusting as Brennan's was and is, I felt it kind of not in his personality to be like "ok, if he's fine, sounds good to me". I guess I can kind of get it, if his reasoning was I hate talking to you about stuff, and I'm in pain leave me alone. Jason other than Brennan is my favorite character. I hope they end up together or at least friends, they would probably help each other cope, in ways that a therapist would never be able to understand. A big question I have about Jason in particular which I hope is answered soon, does Jason know that Brennan has been found. I say this because...he is in a psych ward. I have had my practicals in psych wards in a hospital and if your on suicide watch (in a psych ICU) they don't let you watch TV, even if your not on suicide watch I can't imagine he would be in general population either. So my guess, is Jason might be harboring major guilt here, thinking he didn't make it in time and Brennan is dead and he is responsible and shouldn't have run. Even though this story is about Brennan, I'm pretty sure Jason's story would be more horrific...though Jason seemed more terrified of Phil more than Richard...but I kind of glossed over it because I felt it was because Phil was unknown where he knew what to expect from Richard and also if he stayed with Phil than he'd have two masters and also Brennan to worry about.

Hmmm...well good story, read it in a day and a half. Hmmm...kind of bored with the at home situation. Bored might not be the word, more like annoyed. Carter seems cool though and well Sam...guess I can say well uhh she isn't my favorite character but she seems to make Brennan seem happier at times. Yea, I'm assuming Brennan here doesn't get help? If he does guess he is skyping/teleconferencing his counseling sessions from his condo later on.