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Strangely enough, I feel like now we're, after over twenty chapters, finally going to learn about Brennan's real personality and character. As exciting as the abduction arc was, we only saw a part of Brennan that probably had never once come out before, and even as we followed his thoughts they didn't really represent Brennan as a person throughout his previous twenty years of life. Of course the new Brennan will be different, taking into account what happened, but maybe we'll see some of his core. For example, when he joked with Dawn and Matt, it was the first time he joked the whole story, or really smiled (besides maybe pathetic, comforting but insincere smiles to Jason, maybe, and that time he stabbed Al with the syringe, but those don't count). Granted, I know he's still struggling and maybe these aren't real either, but I thought instinctively he's trying to fit back into place and do what old-Brennan would do. His style of speaking is definitely different than how he spoke around Phil and Al, which is obvious, I guess. The contrast is just interesting.

The officers seem nice - especially Bowden, I wonder if he was briefed on how to act around a male rape victim or if that was his own conscience and decency? Haha, I was thinking this community must not have a high violent crime rate or something considering how the doctors and police officers wear their thoughts and horror on their faces. That's all right, it's great that they aren't desensitized, but Brennan is already taking it the wrong way and I'm sure that's not going to change when "normal" people start being made aware of what happened, see: Matt.

Matt seems like a nice guy so far. He caught the bit about the HIV meds... I'm hoping his horror at that stems purely from his baby brother being raped and not any kind of homophobia, whether or not that's actually directed at Brennan. I mean, Phil and Al are pretty much pure monsters, but they - and the crimes they committed - should be hated for the right reasons. We still don't know enough about Brennan's family or background to know how "tolerant" they are and if that would affect their assessment of what Brennan was victim of - or their judgment of Brennan himself - but since Brennan seems pretty indifferent his own undecided sexual orientation I wonder if his family will reflect those views. Kind of jumping ahead, but since this is a male-on-male rape case, especially since I'm gay myself, this is just something I think about.

I wonder what Brennan looks like now... if Matt didn't recognize him. I know he's lost a lot of weight. Not sure if he has any visible bruises since it's been what, ten days since he was "murdered"? and I don't think he'd been beaten since Rich left, can't remember if Phil hit him during the snuff. I know his hair has grown, you didn't mention if Phil/Al ever cut it, don't know how long his hair was to start with but I guess after five months it's pretty long. He must just look pretty ghastly from malnourishment, and pale from not seeing the sun in a month?

Awe, for crying out loud, I was sobbing right along with Brennan during his reunion with Matt. I needed a box of kleenex myself and then had a runny nose. This chapter was emotionally draining for me but more so for poor Brennan. I liked the detectives, they were very kind and not pushy, although I was surprised by how Officer Kent reacted to what Brennan was telling her to the point she had to use the bathroom and wash her face with what I assumed was cold water. - I don't know shouldn't she be used to this kind of questioning and not have been shocked by what was coming out of Brennan's (the victim's) mouth? I did like Detective Bowden very much and how he handled himself around Brennan. He was very sensitive to what Brennan must be going through and the fact he shared something very personal with him meaning he was the cop on the scene when Brennan was found and saw him at his most vunerable state. I loved that Brennan was able to make a joke at 'Ducky' aka Dawn right along with his brother it shows he still has his humanity left in him even after all he's been through. I did kind of get upset with Matt for not taking in Brennan's condition when he questioned him about being raped but know it's due to the shock at seeing his brother (whom he didn't even recongnize at first) again after 5 long months of agonizing over what happened to him. Thanks for updating Maddox and I hope you are feeling better soon! Oh, and I am stressing about what's happened to Jason since the officers didn't seem to know about him. I am off to tumblr to say "Hi" now.

It's been a brilliant Chapter, again! You really are one of the few writers that totaly suck me into their storys and won't let me out untill I finished the chaper.
I can't wait for the new chapter to come up!
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Ugh, I... was up until 4 AM finishing this. And then I literally couldn't fall asleep for another two hours because I was so hyped and so /scared/ for Brennan. I don't know if it was the lack of sleep, but I couldn't get over your continued hints about Al's job throughout the story. Yes, your story has made me very, very paranoid. I hope they find Jason, I hope the nightmare is over for Brennan. Your summary gives me hope, I guess haha. I did not expect all of that to last for so many chapters, but now it feels necessary, just to show how close to hell Brennan was. Anyway, I repeat: Ugh. This story is going to effect my entire day. Good job!

Well Maddox, you know I have to ask this because it will be haunting me until I find out but is Det. Bowden 'the one'? He would fit the image I imagine for Brennan's new future love interest and he's hot like my special guy, Agent Derek Morgan. Ooooh, I hope it's him because he would be protective (it showed) and could keep Brennan safe and hopefully feel special again someday. Now, this chapter really hit me and I couldn't stop crying right along with Brennan and Matt. It was interesting to find out more about Brennan's dad being an engineer and now we just have to be introduced to his mom. Everything Brennan was feeling really got to me and my heart liteally melted for him. I couldn't believe that they didn't know about Jason. Yes, he lives in PA but wouldn't the police have been in contact with CT once Jason told them about Brennan? Now, I am really worried about him and hope he's not in danger. I wonder who will be assisting Brennan when he eventually takes a shower because I am sure it will bring back a torrid full of awful memories for him. His HIV results have got to come back negative. I don't think Phil or Al were infected nor Rich or Jason so the only one I am worried about is Cole giving him something. I was sorry to hear you are sick so get well soon. Your crazy and fanatic fan, CelticThunderFan/CTF AKA Katie.

i really hate this damn story, and i love it to pieces in the same breath. i go through every emotion while reading it,and i also turn into a chain smoker. when things happen when i think he's going to get away my heart pounds i sweat, just anticipating what will happen next i love it. you are doing a really good job on this story. Ive been reading this since you posted the 1st chapter and a couple of times i thought you had abandoned it but I'm really glad to see you haven't and i hope you wont i will probably go fucking crazy trying to think of how this could have ended.

Oh God Maddox there you go making me all emotional again. I'm usually creeped out or angry after reading your chapters, but this latest one made me cry. You're ridiculously talented. I can't wait to read more.

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I really wish there was another chapter up so I could keep reading! This story makes me feel so many emotions I can't even begin to explain, I really feel everything that they feel. You describe things so well. This is a great chapter, and I do like the new tone to this story so far! Just as interesting and capturing as the last half. *is secretly hoping you will post the next chapter soon like you did last month* haha! Oh my god, when he first saw Matt and made a strangled noise and then started sobbing- I must have read that part like 10 times or more. It was so beautiful! My favorite moment in this chapter. And now that Matt knows (even though he guessed before) that Brennen was raped, and the way he acted- understandably so- I wonder how he will be around him now. Arg I want to keep reading forever! Haha. Well I hope your schoolings going well! And kudos to the awesome chapter! :D

Man, please update faster I need some relief for Brennan and all he is going through. I thought things would be easier for him now that he's away from Phil and Al but he seems even more tormented. When Matt and Brennan saw each other again for the first time in months, I wept like a fool. It was pretty pathetic on my part and everyone was asking me if I was ok.

Reading this story makes me feel like I'm watching a true story movie on lifetime. It's so realistic it's scary. If you publish this, I'm buying!