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June 20, 2013 at 12:00 AM
Such a strong boy.. Poor Jason though, he got out but lost it in the end. Hope things will improve. Have a feeling he will try DR frost. Cant wait!
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June 16, 2013 at 12:00 AM
I kept hoping you would get back on track or even start updating around the first week of the month like you started to do so long ago. I am aging as much as this story just waiting to find out what happens to Brennan. Someday perhaps you can find time to work on it again but until that day good luck. I am not going to beg you to update. I just read through all the reviews and saw how many readers have already done that from the beginning but the cycle is the same and there is no budging you. This story is too good for you to never finish it and give people closure. Thanks for posting what you have and taking write it.
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June 12, 2013 at 12:00 AM
i like it
ilike the way i interacted with the story
like when he was running threw the snow i wood stop reading and then stared saying go go go that be for i new he got cought
i cry threw the whole meeting of his bother mom and dad
i like your story
ilike the way i interacted with the story
like when he was running threw the snow i wood stop reading and then stared saying go go go that be for i new he got cought
i cry threw the whole meeting of his bother mom and dad
i like your story
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June 1, 2013 at 12:00 AM
I swear Maddox. I hope that is just his panic attack speaking.
If after all this you throw him back in Al and Phil's clutches. I would just kill him myself and end his misery.
If after all this you throw him back in Al and Phil's clutches. I would just kill him myself and end his misery.
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May 20, 2013 at 12:00 AM
This was probably the most heartbreaking chapter yet. I really hope this is a hallucination. Please update quickly!
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May 19, 2013 at 12:00 AM
...so, about that Dr. Forest. I think now would be a good time to try him out, Bren.
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May 19, 2013 at 12:00 AM
I love this story. I am new so fell onto this story on Friday and I spent the whole weekend reading it. It is quite scary when you think about it and it also made me check my facebook settings. :D
The story made me feel sick and made my blood run cold all the signs of great writting. I woke up thinking about it.
Please update soon I don't think I'll be able sleep until I find out if Brennan was really taken from the hospital or if he just had one hell of a panic attack.
Also between reading this story and watching Criminal minds I don't think I'll leave my house again. :D
The story made me feel sick and made my blood run cold all the signs of great writting. I woke up thinking about it.
Please update soon I don't think I'll be able sleep until I find out if Brennan was really taken from the hospital or if he just had one hell of a panic attack.
Also between reading this story and watching Criminal minds I don't think I'll leave my house again. :D
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May 18, 2013 at 12:00 AM
Thanks for another great chapter! I like this once, because we can see Brennan's struggle both at regaining a sense of normalcy and himself with the people he talks to (mostly Sam in this chapter) as well as really beginning to get hit symptoms that seem to be already severe PTSD. Such as Brennan's hallucinatory episode at the end... that is, unless Al and Phil really did show up and grab him out of the hospital, which would be - sorry - kind of funny, or they were there and got caught already. haha, well, a bit on the anticlimactic side. ;)
I can get how it's too soon for Brennan to feel comfortable opening up to a therapist, though it's not easy to talk about even months after, almost harder in the sense that you're trying to bury those memories and after letting them stagnate it feels a bit like digging them up all over again. I think the therapist seems nice and probably qualified for this job - though Brennan seems bothered, I don't know if it's just because she's a therapist in general and wants him to talk about feelings he doesn't know how to face, or perhaps because she's so young? He's mentioned it a couple of times now, I wonder if it intimidates him and someone older and more distinct from his age group might be better for him. Though, I don't really think Dr. Carson's choice was "amateur" at all, on the contrary, I think it would have been irresponsible to send in another man at that point and I'm not sure why he's second-guessing himself even as Brennan whole-heartedly agrees that's a bad idea. Not that humoring a fear of men is a good idea either, but for Brennan the crimes aren't being interpreted as an isolated incident. He's unable to look at any non-male family member now without freaking out, and I think it would be extremely uncomfortable for him to open up with the intimate details. But hey, on the other hand, maybe Dr. Forest's experience does give him special insight on this type of case. I don't think Dr. Carson meant to imply that Brennan was gay - that WOULD be amateur of him - but just that Forest deals with cases of male-on-male rape or something. Professionally, it's not a bad idea, but yeah, I'd still be nervous.
Another slip was from Sam. I totally sympathize with her wanting to know more about the bad guys who kidnapped her best friend, and wanting to know what makes criminals tick. And I've put my foot in my mouth, too, but bringing it up like that was really oafish and insensitive. Overall, though, she seems like a nice girl who will do her best to bring Brennan back to the normal world without suffocating him.
Pretty chilling, the connection with the news channel, though. When Brennan compared it to when he saw the channel toward the beginning of his captivity, it kind of shook me back because it has been a pretty long time since I first read that chapter... what, I don't know, a year and a half ago or even two? And now I bet Phil and Al are watching the same program, and that's disconcerting. I'm still trying to imagine what they're like now - I feel things must be rough between them, especially if Al watched Phil's video, and now that Brennan is confirmed to be alive they might be booking it out of the area. I don't think they'd try anything stupid because they're pretty smart, but then again, Al is psychotic and he might. They do know where Brennan lives, after all.
Sorry, I haven't really participated in your tumblr questions but I like to read them! Two things. First, if I were to guess your gender, I'd say with total confidence that you are a woman. Haha, sorry for my hypothesis, but I think men and women tend to write gay erotica a little differently from each other. The sex in Waiting in the Throes definitely gives the feeling of being written by a woman. Of course, it's just a generalization, but going by that and a couple other things... woman. haha Plus, I think like 99% of authors here are women, so this isn't really a long shot. lol If I'm wrong in my deductions, sorry!
Second, someone asked (well, more than once) if Phil was a sociopath. I'd say he's definitely not, going by both the DSM approved Antisocial Personality Disorder and the more general term "psychopathy". Phil might score on a lack of remorse, but ASPD is diagnosed by behavioral patterns that don't seem to fit Phil (from what little we see from Brennan's eyes, of course). Additionally, a total lack of empathy doesn't fit Phil either, nor impulsive/irresponsible responses to boredom. He loves Al (and his relationship with Al seems typical and almost... healthy, if you isolate it from their actions), and he seems to be on amiable, "normal" terms with Rich. A textbook ASPD/"psychopath" will also have no fear of consequence for himself or others, but Phil is quite emotional, I think, and very high-strung when it comes to the threat of being caught. It's much more conceivable that his treatment toward Brennan is dehumanizing and "othering" him, he's a sexual sadist, sure. But I doubt any psychiatrist would diagnose him with ASPD, or possibly anything else at all with the exception of "asshole."
Thanks again for the update!
I can get how it's too soon for Brennan to feel comfortable opening up to a therapist, though it's not easy to talk about even months after, almost harder in the sense that you're trying to bury those memories and after letting them stagnate it feels a bit like digging them up all over again. I think the therapist seems nice and probably qualified for this job - though Brennan seems bothered, I don't know if it's just because she's a therapist in general and wants him to talk about feelings he doesn't know how to face, or perhaps because she's so young? He's mentioned it a couple of times now, I wonder if it intimidates him and someone older and more distinct from his age group might be better for him. Though, I don't really think Dr. Carson's choice was "amateur" at all, on the contrary, I think it would have been irresponsible to send in another man at that point and I'm not sure why he's second-guessing himself even as Brennan whole-heartedly agrees that's a bad idea. Not that humoring a fear of men is a good idea either, but for Brennan the crimes aren't being interpreted as an isolated incident. He's unable to look at any non-male family member now without freaking out, and I think it would be extremely uncomfortable for him to open up with the intimate details. But hey, on the other hand, maybe Dr. Forest's experience does give him special insight on this type of case. I don't think Dr. Carson meant to imply that Brennan was gay - that WOULD be amateur of him - but just that Forest deals with cases of male-on-male rape or something. Professionally, it's not a bad idea, but yeah, I'd still be nervous.
Another slip was from Sam. I totally sympathize with her wanting to know more about the bad guys who kidnapped her best friend, and wanting to know what makes criminals tick. And I've put my foot in my mouth, too, but bringing it up like that was really oafish and insensitive. Overall, though, she seems like a nice girl who will do her best to bring Brennan back to the normal world without suffocating him.
Pretty chilling, the connection with the news channel, though. When Brennan compared it to when he saw the channel toward the beginning of his captivity, it kind of shook me back because it has been a pretty long time since I first read that chapter... what, I don't know, a year and a half ago or even two? And now I bet Phil and Al are watching the same program, and that's disconcerting. I'm still trying to imagine what they're like now - I feel things must be rough between them, especially if Al watched Phil's video, and now that Brennan is confirmed to be alive they might be booking it out of the area. I don't think they'd try anything stupid because they're pretty smart, but then again, Al is psychotic and he might. They do know where Brennan lives, after all.
Sorry, I haven't really participated in your tumblr questions but I like to read them! Two things. First, if I were to guess your gender, I'd say with total confidence that you are a woman. Haha, sorry for my hypothesis, but I think men and women tend to write gay erotica a little differently from each other. The sex in Waiting in the Throes definitely gives the feeling of being written by a woman. Of course, it's just a generalization, but going by that and a couple other things... woman. haha Plus, I think like 99% of authors here are women, so this isn't really a long shot. lol If I'm wrong in my deductions, sorry!
Second, someone asked (well, more than once) if Phil was a sociopath. I'd say he's definitely not, going by both the DSM approved Antisocial Personality Disorder and the more general term "psychopathy". Phil might score on a lack of remorse, but ASPD is diagnosed by behavioral patterns that don't seem to fit Phil (from what little we see from Brennan's eyes, of course). Additionally, a total lack of empathy doesn't fit Phil either, nor impulsive/irresponsible responses to boredom. He loves Al (and his relationship with Al seems typical and almost... healthy, if you isolate it from their actions), and he seems to be on amiable, "normal" terms with Rich. A textbook ASPD/"psychopath" will also have no fear of consequence for himself or others, but Phil is quite emotional, I think, and very high-strung when it comes to the threat of being caught. It's much more conceivable that his treatment toward Brennan is dehumanizing and "othering" him, he's a sexual sadist, sure. But I doubt any psychiatrist would diagnose him with ASPD, or possibly anything else at all with the exception of "asshole."
Thanks again for the update!
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May 18, 2013 at 12:00 AM
I love this story. Can't get through a chapter without crying, but I still love it. I'm so attached to Brennan!!!
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May 18, 2013 at 12:00 AM
Oh my... poor boy. Its horrible how this has taken on him. It very realistic. Thank you for this great update.