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April 19, 2016 at 12:00 AM
What a great story! i had to read it all in one go whitch left me with only 2 hours sleep before i had to start work the next day. it was simply that good.
thank you very much and keep writing!
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December 30, 2015 at 12:00 AM
Oh my God I just read your story it's so fucking good and so much detail, it was so sad too the entire time I was crying,the things some people go through in life.I hope you continue writing
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October 7, 2015 at 12:00 AM
Thank you for the story. I enjoyed reading it.
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August 3, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Wait...so does that mean Mark is HIV infected too? :( Sad.
Interesting story, btw.
Interesting story, btw.
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January 25, 2014 at 12:00 AM
Holyshit, no lie this made me sob in my bathroom away from my boyfriend for about 45 minutes. I'm late on the story but this is my favorite story I've ever read before. The Darkfic isn't usually what I read but this...this is really mind blowing to how Mark got so sucked into this. Just...this story is beautiful, I would have ended it with Aiden killing himself, but I guess a happy ending even for a darkfic is possible. 12 out of 10 Love this.
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July 6, 2013 at 12:00 AM
You need to keep writing. This is such a powerful story. Amazing!
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February 28, 2013 at 12:00 AM
Chapter 2
This is so tragic, Mark is starting to slip away he tried so hard to remain Mark but Aiden is winning. The captor is completely and utterly intriguing; he is acts so natural and these burst of violence and rage are so scary because he is seemly calm. How did you ever find Mark/Aiden he is unlike anything I've read. Making he him straight instead of gay was brilliant adding so much more to this story. Then us ans Mark/Aiden not even knowing the captors name makes it all the scarier.
This is so tragic, Mark is starting to slip away he tried so hard to remain Mark but Aiden is winning. The captor is completely and utterly intriguing; he is acts so natural and these burst of violence and rage are so scary because he is seemly calm. How did you ever find Mark/Aiden he is unlike anything I've read. Making he him straight instead of gay was brilliant adding so much more to this story. Then us ans Mark/Aiden not even knowing the captors name makes it all the scarier.
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February 27, 2013 at 12:00 AM
Chapter 1
This very compelling. I may be a woman who has never been sexually assaulted but I can imagine how it would be but being a man/boy is so different. A great deal of woman who are raped never experience an orgasm from it (which is no consolation) but to be a man and having an orgasm coxed from you must be another kind of rape, even if Mark/Aiden hasn’t been penetrated. I want desperately to know more about this captor he obviously has Mark as a surrogate for someone (either real or imagined). Is he insane? I don’t know I suppose it all seems so normal to him, and he’s understandings as well. You really know how to pack on the layers. The resolve Mark has trying to hold on to his identity by repeating his name to himself, it reminded me of Prisoner of War who recite Name, Rank & Serial Number over and over again. The captor chills me to the bone, he can sound so gentle and kind but he’s so menacing. When he said “I have to clean your special area”, it reminded me how a parent speaks to their child to let them know it will be alright. I would never suggest it would be less horrifying to be forced to give a blow job if you’re gay but being straight and being forced adds another element of helplessness and shame.
This is a great beginning.
This very compelling. I may be a woman who has never been sexually assaulted but I can imagine how it would be but being a man/boy is so different. A great deal of woman who are raped never experience an orgasm from it (which is no consolation) but to be a man and having an orgasm coxed from you must be another kind of rape, even if Mark/Aiden hasn’t been penetrated. I want desperately to know more about this captor he obviously has Mark as a surrogate for someone (either real or imagined). Is he insane? I don’t know I suppose it all seems so normal to him, and he’s understandings as well. You really know how to pack on the layers. The resolve Mark has trying to hold on to his identity by repeating his name to himself, it reminded me of Prisoner of War who recite Name, Rank & Serial Number over and over again. The captor chills me to the bone, he can sound so gentle and kind but he’s so menacing. When he said “I have to clean your special area”, it reminded me how a parent speaks to their child to let them know it will be alright. I would never suggest it would be less horrifying to be forced to give a blow job if you’re gay but being straight and being forced adds another element of helplessness and shame.
This is a great beginning.
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November 28, 2012 at 12:00 AM
OMFG!!!! THIS WAS AMAZING. D: I was so sad but the ending made me smile and I think it's brilliant :3 lo. This story was so thrilling and omg... Joey and mark D: I'll never firget this story ever! I loved it.
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June 30, 2012 at 12:00 AM
wow!!! this is one of the most powerful stories i've ever read.
TBH that was not my expectation going into this fic at all. what i was expecting was a lot of sick sex and torture... and those parts WERE great... but by the end of the story i didn't even care about that, because the psychological experience of being inside Mark's head as he is slowly brainwashed into becoming a different person, into someone who actually, truly LOVES the man who kidnapped him and destroyed his life, was just so overwhelming. i even had to stop at some points and remind myself of who Joey actually was--a rapist and torturer--because i was starting to forget!! i've read my share of horror stories, many of them on aff.net, but this one takes the cake. Not because of the gore, but because of the psychological element. two scenes stand out to me especially: when Mark realizes that his arm is broken and he can never throw a baseball again, and when we find out that he has HIV just as he is ready to move on from Joey. i think those scenes are so powerful because as readers we are rooting for Mark and want him to heal, but then you make us realize that he NEVER will heal, not completely. the psychological scars have left irrevocable physical scars as well. or maybe it was just the existing damage transmuted into a more visible form, maybe Mark never had a chance of surviving unscathed, we just wanted to pretend, hope, believe that he would. And when he doesn't--like a punch in the gut, like i can't breathe. Absolutely masterful writing. Absolutely chilling.
oh, and can I add a fat dose of jealousy to my praise for this story? obviously it could use some editing work (bunch of grammar mistakes, tense shifts, etc.), but otherwise the writing is superb. honestly shocked at how good it is. As an aspiring writer myself i know what a bitch it is make your thoughts come out on paper right. for you do to successfully do this with a such a difficult and complicated subject is amazing!!! If you're not already a published writer, you should be. you are way too good to be stuck on aff.net. maybe you should even try to publish this story--sure, it's super dark, but then again Fifty Shades of Grey is the world's bestselling book... why not see how it goes? i promise you the first person to be line to buy your book would be me. the only thing (besides editing) about it I would change is the title. "Home Trained for You" is kind of bland IMO, and doesn't fit the dark tone of the story. maybe "The Submission", or something like that? i'm sure you can think of a much better title!
again, thank so much much for writing this. it is a story that i will never forget.
TBH that was not my expectation going into this fic at all. what i was expecting was a lot of sick sex and torture... and those parts WERE great... but by the end of the story i didn't even care about that, because the psychological experience of being inside Mark's head as he is slowly brainwashed into becoming a different person, into someone who actually, truly LOVES the man who kidnapped him and destroyed his life, was just so overwhelming. i even had to stop at some points and remind myself of who Joey actually was--a rapist and torturer--because i was starting to forget!! i've read my share of horror stories, many of them on aff.net, but this one takes the cake. Not because of the gore, but because of the psychological element. two scenes stand out to me especially: when Mark realizes that his arm is broken and he can never throw a baseball again, and when we find out that he has HIV just as he is ready to move on from Joey. i think those scenes are so powerful because as readers we are rooting for Mark and want him to heal, but then you make us realize that he NEVER will heal, not completely. the psychological scars have left irrevocable physical scars as well. or maybe it was just the existing damage transmuted into a more visible form, maybe Mark never had a chance of surviving unscathed, we just wanted to pretend, hope, believe that he would. And when he doesn't--like a punch in the gut, like i can't breathe. Absolutely masterful writing. Absolutely chilling.
oh, and can I add a fat dose of jealousy to my praise for this story? obviously it could use some editing work (bunch of grammar mistakes, tense shifts, etc.), but otherwise the writing is superb. honestly shocked at how good it is. As an aspiring writer myself i know what a bitch it is make your thoughts come out on paper right. for you do to successfully do this with a such a difficult and complicated subject is amazing!!! If you're not already a published writer, you should be. you are way too good to be stuck on aff.net. maybe you should even try to publish this story--sure, it's super dark, but then again Fifty Shades of Grey is the world's bestselling book... why not see how it goes? i promise you the first person to be line to buy your book would be me. the only thing (besides editing) about it I would change is the title. "Home Trained for You" is kind of bland IMO, and doesn't fit the dark tone of the story. maybe "The Submission", or something like that? i'm sure you can think of a much better title!
again, thank so much much for writing this. it is a story that i will never forget.