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April 2, 2009 at 12:00 AM
One thing I have to say to you guys is that you keep your readers on their toes! Some of the things that occurred in the four chapters you released during this mini-arc were rather unexpected.
I was sort of disappointed that Boyd didn’t learn about everything that had been going on with Sin – from the meltdown in the elevator, from being pulled off active duty for three months, and eventually the lowdown he got from Ann – well… from Sin.
'I should have been there’ – Boyd’s quote in regard to the incident involving Sin and the people his partner took out on the elevator – and the subsequent reasons he gave for that not being true were mighty interesting. I don’t know. I seriously doubt he would have thought any of those things had not the fight occurred between Sin and him… and more importantly the fact that Sin had slept with Ann… well, which started the fight in the first place. Even as a friend instead of a lover, pre-fight, I can’t see Boyd not wanting to stop whatever it was he was doing in order to help Sin when Sin was in trouble – serious trouble in regards to his partner’s wellbeing… not just playing gopher, getting books on demand or searching for candy at O’Dark Hundred Hours just because Sin’s bored.
I wanted some violence against Ann. And, unfortunately, with all that talk about Sin going ape in the elevator the rotten part of me was going… there was Boyd’s prime opportunity to become the crazy sidekick by copycatting his partner’s way of cleaning out an elevator. So going to hell… even if over fictional characters.
God. Ann. She keeps digging her own grave as far as her lack of professionalism goes. Now she is breaching patient/doctor confidentiality by sharing information with Boyd. Granted, the information will be helpful to Boyd, and maybe it is better to hear the clinical aspect of whatever the hell is wrong with Sin’s head coming from the one once treating him because Lord only knows what will (or won’t) come out of Sin’s mouth when the time comes for the two partners to sit down and air their dirty laundry.
As much as I’m still pissed at Boyd and his attitude in general when it comes to Sin anymore, I do have to concede that facing the fact for a second time that Sin bases his own importance in life on Boyd’s perception of him, and would harm himself, even take his own life if Boyd were to reject him for good, God… I couldn’t imagine having that sort of burden hanging over my head.
I was also hoping that the revelation about Emilio’s death would have been taken care of by Sin’s own admission. But, hey, real life doesn’t always give us what we want either, huh? ; )
I was glad to see the return of Ryan… if only for a brief interlude. And Cade… well, that was disturbing.
OK. How come I’m the only one who thinks that Kassian is a real shit? Don’t get me wrong, I like him as a character. He’s very real. He is not the perfect, infallible super agent that Sin accuses Kassian of being – yeah, he ain’t no Captain America. The man is lonely, he makes mistakes, and if not so, he is at least a borderline alcoholic. However, there is just something about him… like he has a hidden agenda… or something… there’s something off… and wrong about him – besides the fact that his sense of humor is rather mean-spirited. His sudden latching onto Boyd isn’t that big a surprise but the way the jerk went about it is really underhanded and extremely sleazy.
Ann claims she didn’t have a clue as to Sin’s and Boyd’s sexual relationship – that I still find dubious, but whatever. Now Kassian… he’s a completely different story. This guy has been in the know since Boyd decided to dump his emotional baggage at the senior agent’s feet. Boyd had a blowout with the main sexual partner because of infidelity. Boyd still obviously loves the other man – the man that just so happens to be Kassian’s arch-nemesis. OK, so Kassian knows Boyd is going through one hell of an emotional upheaval and the dirt bag proceeds to say, oh, by the way, I think you’re hot and want to fuck you, just thought you’d like to know. Huh? Self-centered much? Oh, it’ll be nothing serious. No love. No commitment. Just a fuck between friends whenever the urge strikes. Excuse me? Run, Boyd. Run as fast as you can, babe.
Can Boyd be any more of a… girl? For the love of God! When did you find me attractive? How… what… since when? I remember him doing the same nagging, hundred and one question thing with Sin in Book One.
Jesus. And Boyd is actually considering taking Kassian up on the proposition? Idiot. You know, I don’t think Boyd could get involved with anyone and not end up falling for them. I don’t see him as a causal love kinda guy. But, then again, hell, I’ve been wrong all throughout this second installment. I’m so disappointed (and disgusted, for that matter) in Boyd’s mindset right now.
They’re talking likes and dislikes of sex and then all of a sudden out of the blue, oh, by the way, “how’s Sin?”? More red flags are going up here! Can’t you see them, Boyd? Run! Idiot. RUN!
Sin with a conscience… who woulda thunk? He’s becoming more and more “normal” by the day. How much longer is he going to be able to handle the tough assignments when he doesn’t even believe in what he’s doing? His days in the Agency are numbered.
Jesus. And now this abortion. WTF, Ann? Who do you call when you want to get rid of a dead body? Hmm… Your natural born killer of a psychotic patient currently on medication for hallucinating and seeing dead people, the same patient you’ve been fucking until the lover found out and got pissed? Yeah, that’s who! Oh, yes… that’s gonna end well – especially since the dead body’s not so dead. Man, I’ve been awfully judgmental in this story, too, but damn, this woman needs to die… a slow and painful death. So much for her brand of therapy… I’d say it’s sort of not working. Maybe Shane should get a hold of her and work some of his mojo on her.
The whole showdown at Boyd’s house… wow. It would seem that either the drugs that Sin is taking or the fact that Boyd has now become a threat to Sin because of hurting him emotionally with the breakup fight has taken away Boyd’s usual power to rein his partner in when Sin is off in killer mode. Such a shame that all had to happen.
I couldn’t believe though that Boyd just let Sin run off. He didn’t even try to think of places Sin would go when under duress like that? And then, not call anyone? Especially since he knew that Carhart was Sin’s biggest advocate and more importantly that Sin had been under threat of termination if the wigging out episodes reoccurred? Sin must have rattled both of their brains more than they let on to have screwed up that badly. Senior Agent Trovosky isn’t shining too brightly at the moment… and it didn’t even occur to me that yeah, he’s fraternizing with a candidate for Level 10 when he is one of those who has some say as to who gets it and who doesn’t. Seems Senior Agent Trovosky was thinking with his little head…
The whole scene between Boyd and Sin in the psych ward was tense, touching, and bittersweet all at once. But, I have to wonder, what is it that Boyd hadn’t changed his mind about concerning Sin? I didn’t realize he had made a decision about anything other than talking and listening to what Sin had to say. And, would Boyd really just walk away knowing that his mother had only to give the word and Sin would be killed? What happened to risking it all to get Sin out of the box when Connors wouldn’t listen? Things really have changed between them. It’s almost as if Boyd has already cut himself off from Sin whom he had once claimed to love so desperately.
Carhart is finally taking the hard-ass approach with his subordinates now – a little too late. How in the hell is that supposed to work exactly? That Sin and Boyd remain nothing but partners, not to see each other outside of a meeting or a mission. I’m surprised that they just aren’t being split up period after all the shit that has hit the fan backed up by Boyd’s True Confessions during Torture Time with Boyd. Is Carhart making the same sort of speech to Sin? Telling Sin to stay the hell away from Boyd or else?
God, what a mess!
Emotional trauma… I can’t take too much more! But, contrary to all the bitching, I truly love the story, truly I do! As readers, we are privy to so much behind the scenes stuff, what each of the characters are thinking pretty much at any given moment as different scenarios play out… so yeah, it is only natural to sit on the sidelines and yell, rant, and rave when things don’t go right, according to plan… whose plan? Well, each reader has their own, I suppose. Please continue to tell your story the way YOU guys have planned and certainly don't mind me! Your story is incredibly entertaining and something to look forward to read. As always, thanks again for sharing.
I was sort of disappointed that Boyd didn’t learn about everything that had been going on with Sin – from the meltdown in the elevator, from being pulled off active duty for three months, and eventually the lowdown he got from Ann – well… from Sin.
'I should have been there’ – Boyd’s quote in regard to the incident involving Sin and the people his partner took out on the elevator – and the subsequent reasons he gave for that not being true were mighty interesting. I don’t know. I seriously doubt he would have thought any of those things had not the fight occurred between Sin and him… and more importantly the fact that Sin had slept with Ann… well, which started the fight in the first place. Even as a friend instead of a lover, pre-fight, I can’t see Boyd not wanting to stop whatever it was he was doing in order to help Sin when Sin was in trouble – serious trouble in regards to his partner’s wellbeing… not just playing gopher, getting books on demand or searching for candy at O’Dark Hundred Hours just because Sin’s bored.
I wanted some violence against Ann. And, unfortunately, with all that talk about Sin going ape in the elevator the rotten part of me was going… there was Boyd’s prime opportunity to become the crazy sidekick by copycatting his partner’s way of cleaning out an elevator. So going to hell… even if over fictional characters.
God. Ann. She keeps digging her own grave as far as her lack of professionalism goes. Now she is breaching patient/doctor confidentiality by sharing information with Boyd. Granted, the information will be helpful to Boyd, and maybe it is better to hear the clinical aspect of whatever the hell is wrong with Sin’s head coming from the one once treating him because Lord only knows what will (or won’t) come out of Sin’s mouth when the time comes for the two partners to sit down and air their dirty laundry.
As much as I’m still pissed at Boyd and his attitude in general when it comes to Sin anymore, I do have to concede that facing the fact for a second time that Sin bases his own importance in life on Boyd’s perception of him, and would harm himself, even take his own life if Boyd were to reject him for good, God… I couldn’t imagine having that sort of burden hanging over my head.
I was also hoping that the revelation about Emilio’s death would have been taken care of by Sin’s own admission. But, hey, real life doesn’t always give us what we want either, huh? ; )
I was glad to see the return of Ryan… if only for a brief interlude. And Cade… well, that was disturbing.
OK. How come I’m the only one who thinks that Kassian is a real shit? Don’t get me wrong, I like him as a character. He’s very real. He is not the perfect, infallible super agent that Sin accuses Kassian of being – yeah, he ain’t no Captain America. The man is lonely, he makes mistakes, and if not so, he is at least a borderline alcoholic. However, there is just something about him… like he has a hidden agenda… or something… there’s something off… and wrong about him – besides the fact that his sense of humor is rather mean-spirited. His sudden latching onto Boyd isn’t that big a surprise but the way the jerk went about it is really underhanded and extremely sleazy.
Ann claims she didn’t have a clue as to Sin’s and Boyd’s sexual relationship – that I still find dubious, but whatever. Now Kassian… he’s a completely different story. This guy has been in the know since Boyd decided to dump his emotional baggage at the senior agent’s feet. Boyd had a blowout with the main sexual partner because of infidelity. Boyd still obviously loves the other man – the man that just so happens to be Kassian’s arch-nemesis. OK, so Kassian knows Boyd is going through one hell of an emotional upheaval and the dirt bag proceeds to say, oh, by the way, I think you’re hot and want to fuck you, just thought you’d like to know. Huh? Self-centered much? Oh, it’ll be nothing serious. No love. No commitment. Just a fuck between friends whenever the urge strikes. Excuse me? Run, Boyd. Run as fast as you can, babe.
Can Boyd be any more of a… girl? For the love of God! When did you find me attractive? How… what… since when? I remember him doing the same nagging, hundred and one question thing with Sin in Book One.
Jesus. And Boyd is actually considering taking Kassian up on the proposition? Idiot. You know, I don’t think Boyd could get involved with anyone and not end up falling for them. I don’t see him as a causal love kinda guy. But, then again, hell, I’ve been wrong all throughout this second installment. I’m so disappointed (and disgusted, for that matter) in Boyd’s mindset right now.
They’re talking likes and dislikes of sex and then all of a sudden out of the blue, oh, by the way, “how’s Sin?”? More red flags are going up here! Can’t you see them, Boyd? Run! Idiot. RUN!
Sin with a conscience… who woulda thunk? He’s becoming more and more “normal” by the day. How much longer is he going to be able to handle the tough assignments when he doesn’t even believe in what he’s doing? His days in the Agency are numbered.
Jesus. And now this abortion. WTF, Ann? Who do you call when you want to get rid of a dead body? Hmm… Your natural born killer of a psychotic patient currently on medication for hallucinating and seeing dead people, the same patient you’ve been fucking until the lover found out and got pissed? Yeah, that’s who! Oh, yes… that’s gonna end well – especially since the dead body’s not so dead. Man, I’ve been awfully judgmental in this story, too, but damn, this woman needs to die… a slow and painful death. So much for her brand of therapy… I’d say it’s sort of not working. Maybe Shane should get a hold of her and work some of his mojo on her.
The whole showdown at Boyd’s house… wow. It would seem that either the drugs that Sin is taking or the fact that Boyd has now become a threat to Sin because of hurting him emotionally with the breakup fight has taken away Boyd’s usual power to rein his partner in when Sin is off in killer mode. Such a shame that all had to happen.
I couldn’t believe though that Boyd just let Sin run off. He didn’t even try to think of places Sin would go when under duress like that? And then, not call anyone? Especially since he knew that Carhart was Sin’s biggest advocate and more importantly that Sin had been under threat of termination if the wigging out episodes reoccurred? Sin must have rattled both of their brains more than they let on to have screwed up that badly. Senior Agent Trovosky isn’t shining too brightly at the moment… and it didn’t even occur to me that yeah, he’s fraternizing with a candidate for Level 10 when he is one of those who has some say as to who gets it and who doesn’t. Seems Senior Agent Trovosky was thinking with his little head…
The whole scene between Boyd and Sin in the psych ward was tense, touching, and bittersweet all at once. But, I have to wonder, what is it that Boyd hadn’t changed his mind about concerning Sin? I didn’t realize he had made a decision about anything other than talking and listening to what Sin had to say. And, would Boyd really just walk away knowing that his mother had only to give the word and Sin would be killed? What happened to risking it all to get Sin out of the box when Connors wouldn’t listen? Things really have changed between them. It’s almost as if Boyd has already cut himself off from Sin whom he had once claimed to love so desperately.
Carhart is finally taking the hard-ass approach with his subordinates now – a little too late. How in the hell is that supposed to work exactly? That Sin and Boyd remain nothing but partners, not to see each other outside of a meeting or a mission. I’m surprised that they just aren’t being split up period after all the shit that has hit the fan backed up by Boyd’s True Confessions during Torture Time with Boyd. Is Carhart making the same sort of speech to Sin? Telling Sin to stay the hell away from Boyd or else?
God, what a mess!
Emotional trauma… I can’t take too much more! But, contrary to all the bitching, I truly love the story, truly I do! As readers, we are privy to so much behind the scenes stuff, what each of the characters are thinking pretty much at any given moment as different scenarios play out… so yeah, it is only natural to sit on the sidelines and yell, rant, and rave when things don’t go right, according to plan… whose plan? Well, each reader has their own, I suppose. Please continue to tell your story the way YOU guys have planned and certainly don't mind me! Your story is incredibly entertaining and something to look forward to read. As always, thanks again for sharing.
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April 1, 2009 at 12:00 AM
Not much can make me cry. This story can make me cry and it has on a few occasions. Like that last couple chapters posted in this arc. I really liked the part where Kassian told Boyd about his feelings for him. I had suspected before, but now it's all out there. It's good that Kassian and Boyd have found a friendship, as oddly open as it is. I'm glad Sin finally told Boyd how he felt and that that was reinforced by Carhart. I understand Carhart's feelings, but the hopeless romantic in me wants to yell 'Fuck off! Let them be together!!', but in this world you've created, I know that will be difficult and not without major consequences, obviously. (But I still want them to be together...) I don't even know what to make of Ann and that whole situation. Just, wow. Oh, and Ryan!! He's back in the story! I'm using too many exclamation points, I know.
And I totally feel bad for Gregory Wick. I'm kind of happy Sin did too.
I have to get up really early in the morning (later today), but I got sucked in like always. The characters are so realistic that I can't stand for all of these things to be happening to them. I will be waiting anxiously for the next update. (And thanks for the four chapters instead of three. I can't imagine being left without that last chapter.)
And I totally feel bad for Gregory Wick. I'm kind of happy Sin did too.
I have to get up really early in the morning (later today), but I got sucked in like always. The characters are so realistic that I can't stand for all of these things to be happening to them. I will be waiting anxiously for the next update. (And thanks for the four chapters instead of three. I can't imagine being left without that last chapter.)
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March 31, 2009 at 12:00 AM
Well. Ann sure was desperate enough calling Sin for help, which was not surprising as she doesn't really have anyone.. I still have some sympathy for her, with Philip's abuse etc.. but the whole situation was extremely f*cked up. Sin is ill, Ann is supposed to be a professional (and most of the time she really is) and it's so wrong that Sin, her patient, had to get involved with her personal life. It seemed to really upset Sin leading to an episode (with some Kassian/Boyd thrown in the mix of course). More and more guilt after the already upsetting mission. But I don't know.. in a similar life or death situation to hers, would we really be self-sacrificing? I can only hope this ends here and the Agency won't find out about Sin's part in butchering Philip.
No surprise with Kassian's sexuality, he's also such a nice person and seems to have a stabilizing effect on Boyd. I'm just a little scared of getting too attached to him because I can't ever imagine Boyd having as intense feelings for him as for Sin.. and even though Kassian is an "exit only" no bj type of bisexual, he seems to be able to fall in love with men (shame about his murdered partner by the way, that's really sad). Hmm. As a reader I'm not too interested in any kind of friends with benefits arrangement either, I don't think it would bring much to the story. But Kassian makes me feel all warm and stuff (*grin*), so no matter what you do I hope he won't ever be ditched aside.
My heart is breaking for Sin, and after those encouraging things Boyd told him in the hospital bed? I don't like Carhart's way of dealing with the situation. At the very least Boyd and Sin must talk, TALK TALK TALK. No more misunderstadings and bullshit and games etc. They need to talk. Boyd can't stop being his goddamn friend without explaining the situation. If all they're going to be is partners from now on. Shit. Oh Sin. I love him so. And I have this irrational anger for Boyd like a scorned lover (hah). How can Boyd think like this for example:
"After everything had fallen apart with Sin, it was good to know there was the potential for other options; one with less commitment than with Sin but more comfortable than with Thierry. Provided that he understood exactly what Kassian was proposing."
After EVERYTHING had fallen apart? Everything? Some perspective Boyd, please. And I don't believe in ditching your friends when the situation is difficult, and neither does Boyd, so Carhart better stop being an ass. Protective ass, but still. I want Boyd And Sin to build trust between them, and find a way through this. Maybe it's going to be a long journey but I can wait. Hey there are still two more books, right?
And oh my god, Cade! He's actually human, who would have thought! No, seriously. I'm really curious about him. Give us more. And make Ryan better, and, and... where is Lo más chingón? ;)
No surprise with Kassian's sexuality, he's also such a nice person and seems to have a stabilizing effect on Boyd. I'm just a little scared of getting too attached to him because I can't ever imagine Boyd having as intense feelings for him as for Sin.. and even though Kassian is an "exit only" no bj type of bisexual, he seems to be able to fall in love with men (shame about his murdered partner by the way, that's really sad). Hmm. As a reader I'm not too interested in any kind of friends with benefits arrangement either, I don't think it would bring much to the story. But Kassian makes me feel all warm and stuff (*grin*), so no matter what you do I hope he won't ever be ditched aside.
My heart is breaking for Sin, and after those encouraging things Boyd told him in the hospital bed? I don't like Carhart's way of dealing with the situation. At the very least Boyd and Sin must talk, TALK TALK TALK. No more misunderstadings and bullshit and games etc. They need to talk. Boyd can't stop being his goddamn friend without explaining the situation. If all they're going to be is partners from now on. Shit. Oh Sin. I love him so. And I have this irrational anger for Boyd like a scorned lover (hah). How can Boyd think like this for example:
"After everything had fallen apart with Sin, it was good to know there was the potential for other options; one with less commitment than with Sin but more comfortable than with Thierry. Provided that he understood exactly what Kassian was proposing."
After EVERYTHING had fallen apart? Everything? Some perspective Boyd, please. And I don't believe in ditching your friends when the situation is difficult, and neither does Boyd, so Carhart better stop being an ass. Protective ass, but still. I want Boyd And Sin to build trust between them, and find a way through this. Maybe it's going to be a long journey but I can wait. Hey there are still two more books, right?
And oh my god, Cade! He's actually human, who would have thought! No, seriously. I'm really curious about him. Give us more. And make Ryan better, and, and... where is Lo más chingón? ;)
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March 30, 2009 at 12:00 AM
This is a wonderfully written piece of work. I can honestly say that I have never read such a well written story on AFF. I would even go so far as to say that this story should be published. The characters are delightful, with carefully written background stories that show the development of their characters. The plot is amazing and I couldn’t stop until I had read everything posted. The first book was also amazing and by far exceeded by expectations. I began the story in hopes of smut, but came away with much more.
I can see this ‘new world’ and all the political agenda’s behind the agency. Boyd and Sin are unique unto themselves, and I cannot wait for the next chapter. xox
I can see this ‘new world’ and all the political agenda’s behind the agency. Boyd and Sin are unique unto themselves, and I cannot wait for the next chapter. xox
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March 28, 2009 at 12:00 AM
Just when I thought that everything was better, Carhart has to go be an ass. Boyd and Sin have FINALLY come to understand each other...somewhat... and now you put us in this state of limbo, in where we don't know what is going to happen next. I don't know whether I love you or hate you. AND with the addition of Kassain's bisexuality... I saw this coming chapters ago, but I really don't know what to think about it. I know that I still want Sin and Boyd to be together though. PLEASE tell me that is the ending to the story. Also, I really hate Ann. She calls her patient dealing with a psychotic illness that involves depression over murder to HELP dispose of her husband's supposedly dead body. BUT he's not dead. So, Sin has to kill that bastard and dispose of his body, which resulted in a horrible rendez-vous with Kassain and Boyd, WHICH resulted in his near termination. AND all this while Ann is scott-free. That bitch.
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March 28, 2009 at 12:00 AM
OMG 11 april come now!
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March 28, 2009 at 12:00 AM
you guys are just mean. this story feels so hopeless right now. i was close to tears and i hate that even if it only means the story is amazing and moving. i really don't even know what to say. i had a feeling about the relationship between boyd and kassian and while it would be great for the both of them and they go well together, i can't bring myself to want it to happen. the part when boyd broke in to see sin was something i've been waiting for for what feels like forever, but the circumstances made it so bittersweet. carhart is making a mistake even if he's only trying to protect sin and i hope he realizes that before it's too late. and i was almost to the point of liking ann or least not hating her, but i just hate her so badly now. that was sin's last chance gone. they will kill him for that and it'll only be a matter of time before they find out. i can't imagine you guys writing your way out of all of this, so i'm looking forward to how this gets resolved. i'll be anxious for the next chapters until they come out now, but i dread reading them at the same time. you guys really are too good at this you know.
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March 25, 2009 at 12:00 AM
Good as always. Sin is one of the best characters I've read on this site. Looking foward to more chapters.
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March 17, 2009 at 12:00 AM
This is so goddamn great! You never make it easy for them do you? :P
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March 17, 2009 at 12:00 AM
I really can't express how much I love this story and these characters. They feel real to me in a way that doesn't happen often, especially in stories on the internet.
I like the more contemplative side of Sin. I'm really glad that Boyd is getting past some of the pain of his past with Lou, and I can tell that he's maturing. I was happy that Carhart acknowledged that when in his and Sin's conversation in the last chapter. I see something unexpected happening to Sin in this next mission, though, so I will be anxiously waiting for the next arc of chapters. Awesome update!
I like the more contemplative side of Sin. I'm really glad that Boyd is getting past some of the pain of his past with Lou, and I can tell that he's maturing. I was happy that Carhart acknowledged that when in his and Sin's conversation in the last chapter. I see something unexpected happening to Sin in this next mission, though, so I will be anxiously waiting for the next arc of chapters. Awesome update!