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Ok. So I had to go back and read Determination. I'd like to request that next time you update that you add 2 chapters just because a lot of us have already read Aftermath. It's pretty cool that even if you didn't read Determination, the story line flowed perfectly and everything makes sense.

Anyway, wow. I think I might love Connors. Which is totally unexpected. I figured he'd be an asshole... a male version of Vivienne but he's so different. It's almost like he was playing a game of "convince me" with Boyd. That scene was so awesome. I'm curious to know how that scene would have turned out differently if Boyd had been more honest. It was very cool. Anywho, as usual, I can't wait for the next update!

man, it is SUCH a treat getting all these back-to-back, lengthy chapters. i'm so happy when i see updates and was even late once getting somewhere because i couldn't tear myself away, haha.

it's amazing how wildly out of hand the aftermath of the thierry incident got escalated. people are just abominable when it comes to gossip. and the rate at which boyd was spiraling downward into a black hole was frightening. i know it was commented on that it got a little wordy in that part- but i didn't mind or think it took away from anything. i really think what makes this story so special is that you know your characters absolutely- it is so hard to actually explain someone's thought processes without running into a wall or eventually sounding awkward, because you really have to know your character to get the reader to believe it and stay immersed. and you guys do exactly that, but beyond that it's SO good that it's enthralling and i've rarely before run into this level of character development.

i'm behind on reviewing and there's just too much to comment on- it's so sad about ryan's condition and now i'm worried he might fall ill or something else awful. it's ridiculous people tried to train him in the past without taking his health problems into account.. that's just absurd, really, and i'm glad he is receiving lessons from boyd and that the two of them are continuing to be good friends. i think ryan is irresistibly adorable and it seems so healthy for boyd to actually, finally have a friend in his life who is selfless and genuinely kind-hearted.

the mission in morocco had vividly beautiful descriptions and the conversation with mccall was simply jarring, and i felt stunned by the end of it. i also felt stunned by boyd's breakdown in canada. that whole ordeal was shockingly harrowing and intense. i loved the detail in the action, reading it really made it go by like it was in real time and that highly amplified the suspense. boyd's conversation with his mother afterward... the things she said were outrageously repulsive and horrible. i hated her after that scene much more than before. how can a mother be so callous and malicious to her own flesh and blood? really, how? afterward, during boyd's confrontation with harry it was as though nothing at all could possibly get any worse for boyd or more hopeless and terrible until sin stepped in. it is amazing that just one shared look of understanding and compassion could be enough to help boyd be inspired to get back on his feet, but it's also thoroughly sad that someone who doesn't ask much from people still rarely ever receives it.

boyd's antics with connors and samuel were hilarious! and i'm very interested in connors now because he doesn't seem like a total prick but nor is he nice, and i assume that there is a great deal more to the man than is made apparent.

you definitely set the perfect setting for some one-on-one: boyd and sin locked in sin's apartment together. i'm running over all the possibilities of where this could end up, but have no hope in guessing right. but i DO hope that they talk, and that sin heard what boyd said to his mother, because that was hands down the greatest moment. i'm so glad he's bounced back from the hell he'd been living in, though of course it's not all over, at the very least he is doing better and functioning for sin's sake.

i was all over the place trying to catch up with comments, but ah well. i think the story only gets better and more addictive every chapter and eagerly await the next one. :)

=O! It just keeps getting better! I was really excited when I logged on and there were 5 new chapters. :)

Aw... no more? *is sad*. But yeah, I deffinately created an account just so I could review this story. Which is amazing... your story, not the account. Anywho, awesome as always. It's always better when they're getting along and being cute. Can't wait for the next update (as usual)...

So fucking wonderful that it should be illegal

Chapter 20 review -

Exciting and sad and very moving. Still feel like it could be tightened up a bit - but a truly awesome read!

I normally don't read slash that much, but this one's really great. I like how you protray your characters and their backgrounds. The only thing that I thought was lacking was why did the war start? But then again it's not my story. Great job, and keep them coming.

Phew!

Just finished reading chapter 20 - was quite surprised to see four updates so soon, but very glad! Of course, out of the four chapters, 20 just had to be the one with the major cliff-hanger! Holy crap, I really want to hurt someone now. >8O

I was debating making an individual review for each chapter, but figured I'd look like a spamming nut, so I'll put everything into one comment. I'm finding it difficult to write my thoughts out however; many times I wanted to comment on something in one of the chapters, but ended up forgetting whatever it was because I got swept away with the rest of the story. Gah! Should have wrote everything down... >=o

Hm, well once again, I'm left feeling a hurricane of emotions...amusement, annoyance, sadness, anger, satisfaction, dread, hate...yep, definately some intense feelings there. With all the detail in these recent chapters, kind of hard to feel nothing. I remember thinking before, that things couldn't get much worse...man, was I ever wrong. I think it's safe to say that while reading through chapter 20, you definately get the feeling that Boyd has hit rock bottom, plain and simple. Each chapter just hammered that point home, harder and harder. "Poor Boyd" is a bit of understatement in my opinion.

Oh yes...

Okay! OKAY! I'll admit it! Ryan isn't so bad...

He's been focused upon a lot within these last installments and now that I understand his character a lot more, I don't dislike him anymore. In fact I like him a lot. After everything that has happened, I reflected a bit upon my previous thoughts and realized that getting so annoyed over Boyd thinking that Sin and Ryan might have a thing going on, was quite silly. Ryan is actually a really great guy and the scene with him and Boyd sparring was definately one of the brighter moments. To be honest, most of the parts with Ryan were somewhat cheerful, just because he seems to take the negativity out of things. And I'm also quite happy with him because he seemed to be the 'clue' master...Love how in chapter 20 he went up to Sin and verbally smacked some sense in to him, gave him a clue about how Boyd really felt. >XD That was probably one of the most relieving scenes yet, just because you knew that finally Sin and Boyd might have a chance at working things out. Of course that asshole Harry just had to go cause problems...oh well, at least he's dead now and not coming back. >X(

I'm literally bubbling with anticipation for the next chapter, how the hell is Boyd going to save Sin? x_x As much as I was cursing at the sudden turn of events and hoping all the guards would blow up, I couldn't help but feel a swell of happiness at the same time...Sin and Boyd might be able to communicate properly now! Darn emotionally retarded people screwing themselves over repeatedly...will something actually work out this time? :o

(Bah, I'm a bit out-of-order and tend to be all over the place with my comments, I know, but chapter 20 is freshest in my mind and definately my favourite one of the group. I also just tend to write about whatever I remember, as I go.)

Okay..and now that Vivienne has made another appearance, I can't help but comment on her again. When I said she was a bitch before...I didn't do the implication justice, I still felt at the time that she may harbor some at least mildly loving feelings towards her son. It was made pretty clear now that that isn't the case... Gawd, I just kept wishing Boyd would have slapped her back, probably not the best course of action, but it would have felt good. Or, at least solidly told her "no" in response to her wanting him to whore himself out...gah! Wtf?! In a really demented, logical way, I understand where she's coming from...but screw that! The principal of the matter is that her 'orders' are down-right disgusting and so is she. Hmph, saying she only had Boyd because of her infatuation with his father...and she has the nerve to repeatedly call her son stupid? -_- Bleh, she's on top of my "to hate" list now.

Ah, what else? Well I actually liked how the mission played out in chapter 20, quite refreshing. While I find Boyd's plans and way of handling things usually quite fun, this change in attitude was welcome. Excluding chapter 19, which focused solely on Sin's solo mission, the other two chapters were generally quite depressing and portrayed so much emotional trauma, that I was really getting antsy and hoping someone would die soon. So when Boyd just snapped and started shooting people, I got quite excited to say the least. >_> It was sad to see Sin and Boyd continuously fighting and having their little pissing contests..so when Sin was forced to run in after Boyd and protect him, it was also satisfying. >83 Mm and after all the shit Boyd has had to deal with, it was even nice to see Jeff not being a total asshole at the debriefing after the 'fuck-up' mission.

I am really starting to hate the Agency now though and most of the people in it, it seems Boyd and Sin are stuck there however. With everyone acting the way they are though, all I could think of was: 'highschool from hell'. With Boyd's extreme depression and slow breakdown due to people's negative reactions...it really was sad, but realistic. Someone just needs to give Boyd a clue...*looks at Ryan* and really make it clear that he's not alone and no matter how much he thinks he's worthless and weak, it's in no way unusual that he's reacting like this. People get emotionally fucked up when it seems like the world is against them. *sigh* I can't help but rant a bit about this. I honestly just can't stand bullies. >8( May they all die, slow, painful deaths! *grumble*

Oye and I also can't help but wonder what exactly happened between Sin and his father. From what I've seen, Emilio actually seemed like a cool guy, but then he was so hard on his son. So that would also make him a big jerk...especially after seeing Sin's flashbacks in chapter 19. Hmm...I suppose that will just remain a mystery for now. *shifty eyes* And speaking of chapter 19, it was really well done, not that the other chapters weren't, but this one was also another nice change. Focusing solely on Sin and his reactions to things. Showing bits and pieces of his past, more of his own emotional breakdown and just generally his 'humanization'. It made his feelings of guilt quite understandable, even if he himself was confused. In reality he isn't just some tool or a monster; he's human and he'll have to face that fact eventually...Of course, in the end, it just makes me hate the Agency with an even greater passion!

The story just keeps getting more and more in-depth, not to mention dark. Hopefully there will be a light at the end of tunnel sometime soon, before Boyd finally does get sick of it all and chokes himself to death with Ryan's cookies. *cackle* It is also quite apparent that Sin and Boyd are meant for each other; they've both become so alienated from things and in many ways alike. I know there were signs of this early on in the story, but I really feel in the recent chapters that they've become extremely similar. "Two peas in a pod." Hmm.. XD

Anywho, I think I've covered everything note-worthy at this point, if I think of anything else I'll try to remember it for next time. And again, I'm extremely happy with all the sudden updates. Very much appreciated. Seriously love this story and the style it's written in. Really looking forward to chapter 21 now; will definately be checking back daily. X3

Until next time...

Ah.... emotion overload. That was all so amazing... as always. Can't wait for more.

I thought the story gets enough reviews and was not going to create an account here, but the latest update was so ***wow*** that I simply could not help adding my two eurocents =)

The story is quite probably the best fic here. The characters are described with such a meticulous attention to every detail that I find myself thinking they are real. Just yesterday I though: "What a shame that Ryan is gay, he'd be the perfect guy for me." And then: "Hello, wake up! He's not real!" =)But I really like Ryan. First I though he was just going to be some sort of comic relief in the story, but now you have shown there are depths in his character. I loved the way he made Hsin understand what Boyd feels, it was probably quite difficult to work up the nerve to do it.

These last chapters were so sad, angsty and intense, they almost made my cry. Poor Boyd - the Agency has finally fucked up his mind! Poor Hsin - his father was a real bastard and turned his own child into a killing machine! And poor everyone in the future world - the war has seriously damaged them all.

I really hate Boyd's mother, how can a woman be such an insensitive bitch?! I hope Boyd forgets all his ideas about being loyal to the Agency and making Mummy proud and becomes a terrorist leader and overthrows the government! That would serve them right.

I'm really looking forward to next chapter and I hope Sin and Boyd will finally settle their differences and be friends again.

And another thing - it's really good that you give thorough insights into the minds of the characters, but sometimes it gets a bit too much. Doubt, anger and fear are complicated feelings, but there is no need to discribe them in such a great detail. I mean, one can just write "He felt sorry for himself" instead of paragraph after paragraph of gloomy sentiments.. But it's just my opinion, I like action, not reflection =)