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hey my name is not important but cutting burning and other pain can take away sorrow anger in my case my anger gets so bad i have broken my own nose so i did not kill someeone i feal if i have the pain no one else will need to feal it thanks for the story and if you want u can contact me thru www.myspace.com/lothous

finaly
some one who understands
i cut
but not for the reasons you used
it calms me when i am feeling overwhelmed by emotions
usually anger or the like
i can't handle it and i cut
not big ones just really shallow enough for that burst of pain to help deal with the emotions
^_^

That was actually pretty interesting.
I used to cut as a form of release, some way to berid myself of the pent-up anger, sorrow, and frustration that I don't want to take out on someone else. Things that I have worked upon myself and have worked upon me. And I didn't make just random hack marks either, I actually made markings and designs on myself as well. Mine, however are upon my breasts and theighs, each meaning some form of freindship to the people that I love most.

I read your story because I wanted to see if I could figure out what kind of cutter I am. I am hardly even a cutter. I dont cut. I burn. I heat up metal and I burn it into my skin. Theres no blood, but there are scars. Anyway, I am sure that it is the motive that matters. I always do it when I am stressed. It clears my head, brings me back to this world. I often get lost in my thoughts but burning is one sure way to pull me back out again. Now anytime I want I could just lift up my sleeve and see the scars, feel them, and sort of remind myself where I am.
I am not sure if that makes much sense. It sort of scares me sometimes that any time I am freaking out, whether from work or school, I go pull out my lighter. Somewhere in the short time I have been doing it, I have become addicted to it. I am afraid that if anyone sees my scars I will never be able to do it again. I dont know if thats what others feel, but I felt like sharing.

just so you know, i get you... I think that some people cut because through everything, no matter what happens, the cuts are still there for you.

Hey, thats sad... i have a few friends who used to cut though they have stoped now for the moment i get really worried about one of them as she is very special to me and i don\'t want her to hurt herself like that again.. ive done all i can and i really hope she comes talks to me before she cuts again... i worry about her. um.. anyways im reviewing your story ;) .. it takes alot of courage to tell something like that you normally would keep quite to the world.. well done and i really hope you will have a great life and live long :)

I couldn\'t help but read ur story. I know a few people who cut. One for a reason u didn\'t mention which is that she just gets so angrey at times she has to take it out on somthing. I found ur I am NOT sorry if i offended anyone amusing. And I respect u for allowing people to speak there mind and that u even go further than that, by not outright descarding what they have to say. Like so many people do when they are disagreeing with them. In my experience in cutters i have found that they are usually very remarkable and open minded. Its like they already have been through everything. I can really understand why u would think it as a trophey. I hope u do obtain freedom and that I hope the cage u are in is not overly harsh. U are a strong person cutters usually are (except the show offs and the angery ones) and I know u will eventually get through this if u don\'t end it to soon. Although from ur reading (if u can base a person on that) i doubt u are. I beilive u are right that the ones who would commit suicide are the ones that want to feel human. Although when i look at humanity I have to wonder why they would want to feel human. I can understand wanting to be with the norm but the norm is rarely good. Anyways, thanks for ur incite I am forever trying to understand reasons behind cutting and I was espically interested in the diversity of the reason. I have looked on \'offical\' sites but i find that they are wishy washy and try and lower the harshness. And are all like and just be supportive and be there when they cut. ANd i am like oh ya cause they are going to call when they cut.(well the attention seeking ones would be but really) So it was nice hearing from a cutter epically when my friends rarely admit it. Like i have one who is like i don\'t cut i just ran through thorns. When her clothes are fine and her cuts are in perfect parralles all the same length(her reason for cutting i believe is habbit) Anyways i am sure u are getting sick of reading this ridiculusly long email. So i will end it with a thanks to ur incite:)

It\'s nice to hear of other people\'s experiences with cutting. I think I\'ll do a story of my own about my experience. I just wish people wouldn\'t see cutting as a desperate, silent plea for help. I need no help and I ask for none.

I cut... I cover them up. I cut because it makes the emotional pain goes away... it\'s like... when you make that slash everything is wiped clean and you feel instantly relieved... but then you have to make more to get that feeling of relief... it stops making the pain go away... you stopped feeling exhilirated and I guess that\'s when cut starts happening out of habit. those were some... interesting musings... I never thought of \'control\' as a reason to cut tho.